This morning as I packed up everything for work I didn't grab the pump, the two bottles, the flanges and the sani wipes and instead of feeling great because I have less stuff to drag around I felt sad, I felt guilty. I always said I would continue this as long as it was mutually beneficial and I am I didn't make a one sides decision. Claire is 15 months now and eating full meals but she still loves to nurse, she does it for comfort and cuddles. She enjoys it at bedtime and early in the morning. I love it too. I hope this does not negatively affect our nursing relationship, I would be oh so sad. The amount of attachment I had to my pump is mind boggling. I always knew I was carrying it around, packing it for trips, finding electrical outlets whereever I could but I thought when I packed it up I would feel happy. I posted about my feelings on the breast feeding support group that I am a part of and was so touched by this response, "Nikol, you've been such an inspiration to so many pumping mamas, and to this non-pumping mama. Claire is lucky to have such a dedicated mama. These transitions can be such a mind f*k. Embrace all the amazing love that flowed through that machine and know another spectacular phase is upon you." Thank you so much Maricela you have no idea how much I needed to hear that.
If you ever need any help or have any questions about your breast pump journey I would love to be helpful