I cannot even blame Kristen for sending me this link, because she sent it to me and three days passed before I actually stumbled upon it myself and then cried. Really really hard.
Trevor and Heidi Davis welcomed their daughter Mazelle Joy into the world on May 24th. Due to complications at birth, she passed away just three days later. This is what brought me tears.
Mazelle was stressed at the end of her birth and because of that she swallow some meconium which can cause distress. Mazelle lived for only 3 days but made a huge impact on those who knew her and her family.
After watching this and crying for their family I began to cry for mine. When I think about my labor and tell people about it I usually start with how beautiful it is and how what are bodies can do is amazing and eventually tell them how much we did not like our hospital and that experience, but I never really talk about how scary it go there for a little bit. Everything that day has a rose tint too it and only when I see the pictures of Ryan sobbing, or how worried my family looked in the waiting room do I remember how stressed Claire got, how her heartbeat was hard to find a few times, and how I screamed, "is my baby ok" more than once. I am crying now just thinking about it. Birth is a miracle and I just feel beyond grateful that we are where we are today. It could have easily taken a wrong turn and I will not forget how lucky we are to have this child of ours. This creation that not only grew, but lived inside of me and now crawls really really fast and eats tons of ground beef. I cannot think about my days without her. God has blessed us with a healthy child and I promise to keep her safe.
Hold your loved ones close
xo, Nikol