I just wasn't.
I treat Claire as a little person, I let her explore and test boundaries and usually I am so happy with the result. She is self assured, she can handle bullies and she tries all sorts of new things. Today I let her play next to me while I was working out [something she has been doing for the last 20 months] and she got on something that wasn't stable and she fell right off. Head first, on concrete and even being right there I wasn't fast enough. I picked her up and after screaming for a little she went stiff, started to shake a little and her eyes rolls. I cried out to Lora to call 911 and its pretty much a blur, while we waited nursing her helped me calm down and helped her come back to herself. In the end I am thankful that it sounded and looked much worse than it was, the paramedics checked her out and then we went to her primary doctor and she is ok. I was able to stay with her all day and we have cuddled and laughed and rested, she is ok. What happened when she went into shock, she hyperventilated while she was crying and that caused her to pass out. I guess that it can happen when kids get super upset or when they get hurt.