Breastfeeding: Well this is just all going to be new to me and I have no idea how to prepare for it. I have my breast pump, it is actually sanitizing right now and then I am going to put it together - pretty exciting. I picture breastfeeding as being really rewarding and really tough. I know it isn't for everyone but I really do hope it is the perfect fit for Claire and I. I know the benefits and I know I want to give her what my body has created especially for her. After learning about breast milk, the benefits and how the milk actually adjusts depending on what the baby needs I just know that I would love to start her off in the best way possible. I expect to have sore nipples for a bit while we get into our groove, I expect Claire to need me all the time and I am thinking that I will be ok with working on her schedule. I plan on using my pump when I need a drink haha or when I need to be away from the little lady. I plan on breastfeeding openly in public and without a cover, my mom does not like this idea - I do have a cover just in case this does not feel as freeing for me as it sounds in my head. I plan on attending Latch and Link in LB on August 3rd if I am able to. I think there will be a wealth of information and maybe I can meet some new mom friends.
My relationship with Ryan: I see it growing stronger, which is amazing since I feel like it has already grown so much in the past eight months. A friend of his gave us some really great advice that I think will come in handy. I am paraphrasing but he said that getting upset with each other because things are not getting done is useless. That each person has different things they need to get done to make this work and if they don't all get done its not because someone is not pulling their weight but it is because there is just so much more to do. Sounds pretty obvious but really makes a lot of sense, I know how I can get when it comes to crossing off my to do lists and I like that advice a lot. Another great piece of advice we learned in our breastfeeding class as that I will have a way that I like to do things whether that is feeding Claire or swaddling Claire and Ryan will have his own way he likes to do it. Neither one is "right" and Claire will come to know that mommy does it this way and daddy does it that way and she will like it like that. That made me teary just writing it, I am so excited to have a way I do things like a mommy and to see how Ryan does things as a daddy.
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xoxo
hope you had a nice weekend
Nikol
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