And hushed me in her arms to rest,
And on my cheek sweet kisses prest?
My Mother.
Thank you
Nikol, the body you are attached to.
Who fed me from her gentle breast And hushed me in her arms to rest, And on my cheek sweet kisses prest? My Mother. Hi breasts, I know for a fact that this is my first time reaching out to you in a letter form and I hope you are doing well. I have been thinking about you a lot lately, a ton over these last 20 weeks and I know that I do not express my appreciation for you both enough. These last 29 years I had not thought much about you except how you looked in a certain top or if I had the right kind of cleavage that everyone was pushing at that time. I stuffed you in bras with tissue, with padding and I occasionally thought about piercing you. People had their own opinions about you, whether you were too small or just right and I had even contemplated my nipple size and color as if those really were something that mattered. I now know how silly I was. I love you, you are perfect. I am glad that I never pierced you or altered you in any way because I do not know how that would have changed the relationship that we have now. Today I lean on you constantly, you feed my child, you allow me to have the breastfeeding relationship that we both desire and need. I thank you. I thank you from the bottom of my heart and Claire also thanks you. We go through this about every two hours throughout my day, whether Claire is with me or not. I pump you, I massage you, Claire nurses from you and this has not been easy. You have cracked, you have been sore, you have got rashes, you have become engorged and you have also been perfect. I want to always appreciate my body the way I appreciate you right now. Last night you were called upon a lot because Claire was having tummy issues and also a little bit of teething pain and I also am back from work after a holiday so I pumped before work and once at work. I had a slight pang of worry though because I did not pump as much as usual and I went into a tizzy - What is wrong with you? What did I do wrong? I took a few breaths, chugged 16 ounces of water, ate about 20 almonds and tried again and guess what you pulled through for us. I thank you, I thank you more than you know and I hope that even when my breastfeeding relationship had ended that I do not look at you in disdain because you are not as full as you once were or because you might be a little lower than you used to be because my body did what it was made to do. You are beautiful and you make me the mother I want to be.
Thank you Nikol, the body you are attached to.
11 Comments
Morgan
12/30/2013 03:12:03 am
Great post :)
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Kristen
12/30/2013 03:12:23 am
Beautiful picture!
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Jaclyn
12/30/2013 03:13:04 am
Amazing pic! You go girl!!
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Rachel
12/30/2013 03:13:14 am
YA!!! Super buena la foto!
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Julia
12/30/2013 03:13:30 am
<3 this!
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Ela
12/30/2013 03:46:22 am
Awww me alegro tanto de la buena suerte que has tenido con "ellas" por ti y Claire!! Great job and post, love it!! ♥♥
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Maricela
12/30/2013 03:49:31 am
Beautifully, perfectly written. You and Claire are a great team.
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Stephanie + Claire
12/30/2013 05:15:30 am
Awww I'm crying and Claire is giggling as we read this!! We both love you and are so proud of you! You're a wonderful mama! Xoxox
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Shar
12/30/2013 07:25:27 am
"The body you are attached to"--perfect! Haha.
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Eva
12/31/2013 02:16:45 am
This is perfect and I couldn't agree more!!
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